There is certain calmness that we feel every time we exhale. There’s that certain tranquility and peace that we feel. For the past month, I have felt that I have been continuously inhaling and inhaling… and inhaling further.
Before my daunted pregnancy, when I was stressed, I would run around – no matter the time, the place. I just kept on running until I found that feeling as when you exhale. Now I blog.
I know most of you have been wondering what happened to me after I knew about my ‘blighted ovum’ or anembryoinic pregnancy. Well, I wished and I hoped that miraculously the baby would appear. But on the 9th week, my doctor, Dra. Aherrera said that we had to take it out. That was May 3, 2010. She inserted a drug to help my uterus contract to expel the gestational sac, placenta and whatever my body made for the baby. It was 11:00 am.
That whole day, I was contracting like hell! I just wanted to get it over with and have everything expelled. I did not bleed until 11 in the evening. The bleeding was so profuse that I didn’t want to go to the hospital just because of the fact that I didn’t know how to get there with all the blood.
At 4am, the bleeding stopped. I rushed to Makati Medical Center and I had my D&C operation at 9:00 am. It was successful as mentioned in the histopath or the medical report that was given after.
I continued to have bleeding, when it was expected of me to stop within 5-10 days. The doctor said that spotting was okay so I didn’t know if mine was relatively considered spotting. I went to my OB again before she went on vacation on May 13, ten days after my D&C. She said that it was not common for bleeding to still continue until the 10th day, so she gave me 2 tablets that would make me expel anything left. I took one in the evening and one on the morning of May 14. I thought everything was okay because the bleeding was not that much anymore. It was my ninang’s birthday so I went to her house party that evening.
After dinner, around 10pm, I started to bleed again profusely. EJ rushed me to Medical City at 11pm. The doctors were surprised to see me bleeding especially after I told them that I had a previous D&C operation. They did not want to release me anymore so I stayed in the labor room overnight. Around 5 am, they did a transvaginal ultrasound again and saw that I still had remains. They scheduled me another D&C at 7:30 am under Dra. Germar.
You would normally have the results or the histopath after three days. In that time, I was looking already for another OB so I went to see Dra. Genuino at Medical Plaza building (right beside Makati med). She was so nice. She had an ultrasound machine at her own office and she offered to check me with that again. And bad news was that she saw something again in my uterus which looked like placenta remains. She wanted to see the histopath and I told her that I was getting it in the afternoon. When I got the results, I went straight to Dra. Germar for consultation. It said to test for beta HCG levels. The hcg levels in the body indicate if we are still pregnant. The histopath said not to rule our gestational trophoblastic proliferation. To put it in simpler terms, there might be placenta cells multiplying inside of me that may be benign or malignant. The benign getational trophoblastic disease or GTD is what they call H-mole. The malignant, I didn’t anymore ask because you know what that means.
Dra. Genuino mentioned that we seek the help of a Trophoblastic Specialist. There are only a few in Manila (around a handful only). Her name was Dra. Lillibeth Sarmiento. When I met her, she mentioned that what I have may be what they call Placenta Accreta. It’s an abnormality of the placenta to attach itself deeply into the muscles of the placenta and that is why it can’t be removed by the normal D&C. She mentioned that GTD cannot be ruled out as well since we cannot do a biopsy. A biopsy would mean that they have to take out the uterus right away. Since she knew this was supposed to be my first pregnancy, she said that if the HCG levels don’t drop in multiples by meaning from the 3800 level that I was in, if it doesn’t go down to 999 or below, we have to do chemo medication.
I had the first check a week after that and it dropped to 3000. I asked for one more week and last June 4, it was at 1800. It’s June 8 and I just came from Dra. Sarmiento and she said it isn’t enough. If you go by the books, after two weeks with HCG levels that high, they are required to do chemo already. So I finally agreed to have this medication.
The side effects would not be as grave as loosing hair since the dosage is low. I will have oral ulcers (singaw) though. I’m feeling a bit light headed also. I can’t have a baby for one year and I’m hoping that a miracle happens and they won’t have to take my uterus out after that pregnancy. I need to have a CS pregnancy since if I do a normal delivery and placenta accreta happens again (which is most likely to happen), I may be in danger of internal bleeding.
Today is my first day of chemo and i’m hoping that after the first course, the results on June 17 would make me happy.
Right now, i’m just waiting to exhale.